JANUARY 3 // WHY?

how come everytime i start to get closer to someone, you start to occupy most of my mind and stop me from going any farther? how come i still feel hope that one day, things might return to normal and we'll be in each others lives again? that i just have to be patient, and it just might happen? i'm tired of feeing confused, i'm ready for it to end. it's been too long, so long, but my feelings have never faltered. i still hold on to the night that you told me you loved me. i still flash back to the times you said forever and always.

i know what i want, but you're holding me back and i can't help it.

Whoever said that distance brings you closer, they must not have known
That when you're out of sight you're out of mind and all alone